A time to cry?? Ok or maybe scream??

You know the names of the fonts make these sound like they are going to be so pretty and they are all just kinda plain! Aint that nuts?!!
Ok so minor rant aside today was a kinda i want to cry day!! I am worried about Jase's ears and the possibility of having to put tubes in. He was/is getting a small fever; its only 99 but that is enough to make him grouchy as in when i go to lay him down he wakes right up and if i move out of his eyesight he screams. I felt bad cuz i sorta yelled at him to stop cuz he laid on the sofa and was just screaming at me!! Argh! I am pretty much attached at the well boob to him. I am trying to think what the longest amount of time i left him for was. It hasnt been very long so its not like he isnt spoiled!!! But so anyhow i keep thinking aobut the tubes...i don't want him to be deaf; better tubes than deaf.. BUT i dont want him to die either under anethesia(sp?) so i know the chances are small but still a chance and i would rather have him deaf than dead???Am i just that strange??? SO yeah anyhow having to deal w/him all day is making me frazzled.
Sat night/Sun early am i sat out in the parking lot of the hospital to wait on my nephew (turns out he (who is 2) has pnemonia) and so didnt get home til like 330am, then we had church at 10 and then sun night Jase didnt want to sleep plus i had to dry dh's uniforms so i wound up not going to bed until like 12:30 am so i am sure lack of sleep may have had something to do with my lousy outlook on things today! I am craving a babysitter so i can just SLEEP for 4 hours or so. I would probably only be able to for 2 but a girl can dream cant she? lol. Tomorrow morning is Bible study and then Wed morning is MOP's plus Wed night the kids have royal rangers and missionettes. Only a few more and then no more until school starts next year. I am worried if we will be able to keep going unless we find a house closer to that side of the county or gas prices come down or i find a way to bring in more money but we will see what happens. So my "baby" sis is now 22 years old. Isnt that something? Some days i wasnt sure she would make it to that old but she is there so HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANDREA!!
and i think thats it for tonight!